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Colts’ Charvarius Ward Sr. opens up about daughter’s death: ‘I’m trying to live through her’
INDIANAPOLIS — Charvarius Ward Sr. wanted to quit.
Before he suffered three concussions last season. Before he even played a game for the Indianapolis Colts. Before he had a chance to truly grieve.
Ward had recently signed a three-year, $54 million deal to join the Colts, marking the second massive contract for a cornerback who went undrafted in 2018. It was supposed to be a triumphant moment in an underdog career, but when training camp rolled around in July 2025, Ward’s head wasn’t in it. His heart wasn’t, either.
Less than nine months removed from the death of his 23-month-old daughter, Amani Joy, Ward thought he’d found some semblance of normalcy, if that was even possible. It wasn’t.
Ward, who contemplated retiring earlier this year, said Wednesday at Colts spring practice that he feels “whole and happy” again after “getting closer to God” this offseason. The work he’s put in to navigate his grief has helped him use his daughter’s death as a source of inspiration more than pain.
That wasn’t possible last year.
“I tried to tough it out, man,” Ward said Wednesday. “Mentally and emotionally … it had got real hard for me in training camp. I had some rough moments in camp. I was having those thoughts like, ‘Man, I don’t know if I can do it.’”
Amani Joy died due to heart issues in October 2024, when Ward was still a member of the San Francisco 49ers. After signing with the Colts the following offseason, Ward said in his introductory news conference that returning to San Francisco was never really an option in free agency because there was “a lot of PTSD out there.”
He joined the Colts looking for a fresh start, but his 2025 season turned out to be a nightmare on and off the field. Ward, still grieving the loss of his daughter, suffered three concussions in 14 weeks. The scariest one occurred when Ward and Colts tight end Drew Ogletree accidentally collided during pregame warmups last October. Ward, who was not wearing a helmet, got knocked out on the field. He regained consciousness when he was being taken away in a wheelchair and spent the next month “getting dizzy” and vomiting.
Charvarius Ward Sr. played in a career-low seven games last season because he suffered three concussions. (Ronald Martinez / Getty Images)
Ward played in a career-low seven games last season because of his repeated concussions, and at the end of the season, he made it clear he didn’t need football anymore. He’d already played in three Super Bowls — winning it all with the Kansas City Chiefs during the 2019 season — been named second-team All-Pro in 2023 and earned $68.8 million in the NFL, per Spotrac.
“I did everything I wanted to do,” Ward said in January. “So, I feel like if I walk away, I won’t regret it.”
A few lifestyle changes, however, have rekindled Ward’s desire to dominate on the gridiron. He’s talked to professional therapists and hired a mental health coach to help him better process the unfillable void left by his daughter.
“I kind of want to play for my daughter, too,” Ward said. “It’s kind of been like a real sore subject for me ever since it happened. Every time I thought about it, I got sad. But now, I think about her, I have a lot of good memories about her. … The man that she made me. She always put a smile on my face. So I’m trying to live through her in my life in general, not just football.”
Ward also moved his fiancee, Monique Cook, and their 17-month-old son, Charvarius Ward Jr., to Indianapolis so they can all be together for his second season with the Colts. Last year, Cook and their son stayed in Dallas near the rest of their family. Ward believes that was a mistake, leaving him feeling isolated, and he’s thrilled to spend more time with those he loves the most. He specifically credited his son for putting “some light back” into his life as he returns to the field.
On paper, the Colts are poised to have one of the best cornerback tandems in the NFL with Ward and two-time first-team All-Pro Sauce Gardner. The duo played only one full game together after Gardner joined the Colts via trade last season because of Ward’s repeated concussions and Gardner’s calf injury. But Ward, who said he’ll consider wearing a Guardian Cap, is optimistic that his concussion issues are firmly in his rearview mirror.
Amani Joy, of course, can’t be put in the past. She will remain top of mind while Ward fights to regain his All-Pro form.
“Obviously, I want to leave the game in one piece, too, because those concussions, that was kind of crazy last year,” Ward said. “But I want to finish the game as one of the best corners in the game. … I know I can be that, so I’m grinding harder than I ever grinded right now.
“I got the motivation back to be one of the best in the world.”
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Football gossip: Rodri, Romero, Diomande, Torres, McNeil, Johnson, Ruggeri
Barcelona increase Rodri bid, Cristian Romero wants to join Arsenal and Nottingham Forest are set to sign Ousmane Diomande.
Barcelona are in continued talks with Manchester City over signing Rodri and have made an increased bid of £51.4m for the Spain midfielder, 30. (Sport – in Spanish), external
Cristian Romero would like to join Arsenal, but Tottenham have no intention of allowing the 28-year-old Argentina centre-back to move to their north London rivals. (Sun), external
Romero is also an option for Barcelona, who are set to let Uruguay centre-back Ronald Araujo, 27, join Liverpool on loan. (Mundo Deportivo – in Spanish), external
Nottingham Forest are set to sign Ivory Coast centre-back Ousmane Diomande, 22, from Sporting for £34m. (Athletic – subscription required), external
Spain forward Ferran Torres, 26, has told Barcelona he wants to join Paris St-Germain after agreeing personal terms with the European champions. (ESPN), external
Everton and Crystal Palace have held talks over a potential swap deal involving English winger Dwight McNeil, 26, and Palace’s Wales winger Brennan Johnson, 25. (Times – subscription required), external
Tottenham have held advanced talks with Manchester City over signing Brazil winger Savinho, 22, with a package worth £60m believed to be enough to complete a deal. (Football Insider), external
Aston Villa are closing in on a full agreement to sign Italian left-back Matteo Ruggeri, 24, from Atletico Madrid. (Athletic), external
Southampton’s Shea Charles could still move to Leeds if they offer more than Fulham‘s current £30m bid for the Northern Ireland midfielder, 22. (Football Insider), external
Niclas Fullkrug has agreed terms with Venezia but the move has been blocked because of West Ham’s asking price for the Germany striker, 33. (Bild – in German), external
West Ham have reached an agreement in principle to sign Israel winger Manor Solomon, 27, from Tottenham. (Athletic), external
Fenerbahce are set to finalise a deal to sign Belgium striker Romelu Lukaku, 33, from Napoli, who will owe Chelsea a sell-on fee. (Gazzetta dello Sport – in Italian), external
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Jorge Messi was Lionel’s father, agent and confidant. He recognised his son’s gift before anyone else
We have seen the images of a disillusioned Lionel Messi standing alone on a football pitch. His worst defeats appeared to consume him within his own solitude. What can one say to someone who, from a competitive standpoint, represents success in excess?
For Messi, that voice of reason, the shoulder to cry on, was his father, Jorge. On Saturday, Jorge passed away at the age of 68 in Rosario, Argentina.
Through both his son’s successes and difficult moments as a player, Jorge had been there, quietly controlling the multi-million dollar Messi brand. He was his boy’s agent and acted as a determined negotiator for one of the greatest athletes of all time. But beyond the headlines and business dealings stood a supportive father.
Jorge knew before anyone else on this planet that ‘Leo’ had a gift. He saw greatness when many others around him saw a weak child with growth issues.
When Jorge packed a suitcase and took his 13-year-old son across the Atlantic Ocean to join Barcelona in 2000, it would change football forever. It sounds like a Hollywood script, but few boys at that age — never mind one who only knew his surroundings in Rosario — would be equipped to move thousands of miles away, to leave their mother and siblings behind.
“My old man was always by my side. We went through a lot of ugly things together,” Messi told Radio Del Plata in 2007. “Sometimes, I would shut myself in my room to cry alone, or he’d do the same, without me seeing him. We’d pretend we were both OK, but we weren’t. My old man asked me, ‘What do you want to do? Do you want to keep going or should we go back home?’ I wanted to keep going, and he stayed with me.”
Lionel Messi with his family, including Jorge, centre, at their home in Rosario in 2003 (Marcelo Boeri/El Grafico/Getty Images)
The life of a footballer was foreign to Messi.
His father was an ardent Newell’s Old Boys supporter and worked at a local metal factory as a supervisor. Players for clubs such as Newell’s, Boca Juniors, River Plate and Argentina’s national team were god-like heroes. Jorge introduced the young Lionel to the folklore of Argentine football and encouraged him to play the sport. After all, that is what parents so often do.
“My old man would get up at four in the morning and get back home at nine at night for dinner, practically every day,” Messi told TyC Sports in 2019. “We saw little of each other, and when we did see each other, he enjoyed my company. He never scolded me. I enjoyed him so much, I would wait for him just to hug him and be with him. He spent all his time working, honestly.”
In Ariel Senosiain’s 2023 book Messi, El Genio Completo (Messi, The Complete Genius), Jorge, in a rare on-the-record interview, spoke about his celebrity son and the initial bond that defined their relationship. He debunked any notion that Messi did not enjoy football as a child — gossip that had gained traction in Argentina. “It’s not true,” Jorge said. “He always had a passion for the sport.”
In that interview, Jorge embraced the comparisons to fellow Argentina footballing icon Diego Maradona that have long followed his son. That discourse has centered on Maradona’s shadow, and the cult of personality that the late Argentina captain still holds around the world. But Jorge chose to remember it much differently, like a proud father.
“We would go to Newell’s matches together,” he told Senosiain. “It became normal for us to do so after he began to play at the club as a seven-year-old. When he was 10, he watched a Newell’s game pitchside. It was against Union (de Santa Fe) and he started juggling and playing with the ball at half-time. The fans began to chant, ‘Marado’, Marado’. (Which supporters years before had also sung in salute to Maradona.)
“I would always watch (his) games by myself, and I still do to this day,” Jorge continued. “I try to sit far away from everyone.
“When he was a youth player at Barcelona, there were times when he would disconnect from what was happening during a game. I would try to get him to look over at me. I’d give him a sign, I’d try to give him a boost and I’d tell him to move. He would throw an arm gesture at me and would respond that I should leave him alone. But he would reconnect, and he’d do something marvellous with the ball.”
Jorge was speaking publicly, and graciously, after Messi had led Argentina to the 2021 Copa America title. That win ended a 28-year drought where Argentina failed to lift a trophy. Messi, however, was collecting Ballons d’Or, claiming La Liga titles and winning two Champions Leagues with Barcelona.
It was a rare interview, and one that came after years of relentless scrutiny in Argentina for his son’s failure to secure a title with the national team.
When Argentina were defeated 1-0 in the 2014 World Cup final by Germany after extra time, Messi’s solitary stare inside the Maracana stadium in Rio de Janeiro became a lasting image of that clash of titans. After they lost the following year’s Copa America final to Chile on penalties, his despair was evident, too. His vacant look captured a moment he could not understand. ‘Why him? Why now?’
A further year later, in the final of the Copa America Centenario, Argentina were beaten by Chile in another shootout. Messi sent his penalty over the crossbar. He cried on the pitch, then abruptly announced his retirement from international football while still at the stadium, surrendering to the hopelessness of the moment. And while the world wondered why, he retreated to the intimate circle of trust that only one’s family can provide.
One can imagine how, at that time, he must have leaned on his father through conversations over mate that would convince him to change his mind. Because in moments when Messi has seemed alone inside his own bubble, Dad was always there. A phone call away.
If that 2016 Copa America final was Messi’s most distressing moment as a professional, today, he is experiencing much greater pain. The solace, perhaps, after such a loss, is that Jorge witnessed his son’s most recent run towards eternal greatness.
Jorge Messi with his son’s Golden Ball award as best player of the tournament at the 2022 World Cup (Jean Catuffe/Getty Images)
There was the tumultuous 2022 World Cup campaign that ended with victory over France in the final. An eighth Ballon d’Or followed in 2023. And then came the 2024 Copa America final defeat of Colombia.
And of course, Argentina’s labored run to the 2026 World Cup final last month, with Messi at its forefront, holds greater weight in light of what we now know he was facing off the field.
Having previously been accused of being crippled by the pressure of representing Argentina, Lionel and Jorge, together, celebrated all the symbolic triumphs.
Messi continued to play for his country, even as Jorge dealt with a health issue during this World Cup. He was overcome with emotion after scoring his first of three goals against Algeria in their opening group game on June 16. “It was something completely unrelated to football,” he told reporters after the match. “I went through some difficult days.”
Words will do little to ease the hurt that Messi and his family are now feeling. The death of a loved one changes you.
But that is unlikely to be what Jorge would want for his son, who is now a father of three boys. In a video message he recorded for him in 2007, Jorge encouraged Messi to remember the life lessons that adversity can deliver.
“We always come out stronger,” he said.
“It helps you become who you are, because I believe that above being a good football player, you’re an excellent person. I’m not saying that because I’m your father, but because most people who know you know that’s true. And so I hope this continues for the rest of your life. That you keep being who you are, and that people love you for that.”
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Men’s Hundred: Southern Brave vs Manchester Super Giants – Highlights
Despite a huge batting collapse, Manchester Super Giants do enough to beat Southern Brave by 10 runs in Southampton, to keep their hopes alive of qualifying for the knockout stages of the men’s Hundred.
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